Take my hand: I am yours,
Nasal voice, broken earsall.
My fingers on your chest are trembling
Tentative as your sighs, a hymn in rhyme.
Our hot blood aches against us.
Look not away from my eyes, blessing
The air between us as a prayer.
Speaking, my hands unlock
our leaping hearts.
Communion of mouths savor sweat, saliva,
not redyet wine for us,
A miracle of holiness and mystery.
Rest not as we pursue
our mutual heresy,
Your touch makes sin a sacred thing.
Please: listen not to what I preach.
My eyes and loins await your revelations.
Your thick legs, warm,
braid in and out of mine
as our hands treadle words. Our bed
is a loom, our bodies the warp and woof
in everchanging patterns,
kisses wrapping loose strands
like language weaving
inside our hands
from "Sylvia Plath Made Me Do It: A Story In
I've tried to ignore
and hide it
but my neck looks a smear of shit.
They notice the brown
and forget I have a crotch.
Their eyes rope me in
while they shrug, Not worth the battle.
I've tried wearing turtlenecks
but they turned out like train wrecks.
My neck is so short I
cowered in the preppy collar look.
Worse yet, I'm wide as
Their eyes make me wish I was fetal.
I want to rip this splotch
and never hear again their coughs.
Beauty does not come
Nevertheless to God I beg, Please.
Photograph by Phillip Ward © 2001 by
Raymond Luczak is best known for
EYES OF DESIRE: A DEAF GAY & LESBIAN READER, a double Lambda Literary
Award-nominated anthology ( Alyson), and ST. MICHAEL'S FALL, a book
of poems about growing up deaf and Catholic ( Deaf Life Press).
His sixth book, SYLVIA PLATH MADE ME DO IT: A STORY IN VERSE, is
due out from Immediate Sensation Books in the spring of 2005. Remaining
copies of the out-of-print EYES OF DESIRE can be found at , www.raymondluczak.com,
together with more information about the author and his work.
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