LITTLE BOY PINK

In a space of deviants just like me,
I feel even more so than ever before.
I laugh to myself to cover the tears
Of the young boy who's in the sandpit.
Mummy's dressed him in pink
And he's pushed to the floor.
He gets up and
Through salted sight
Wonders why his mother
Always gets away with it.

Back to this space of mine—
Deviants deviantly being deviant,
So sociologists would theorize.
Though I'm more deviant than them,
Not once does one stray
To pay me the time of day
To ask how I do it—
To get a tip, so to speak, from
The deviant horse's deviant mouth.

But I'd put money on the fact
That secretly they're wondering
Like the little boy pink.

 

 

PHILIP PATSTON is: a white, disabled, vegetarian gay man. A social entrepreneur, consultant, and comedian. A writer, actor and professional speaker.

 

 

JAW SET

When I feel so full of hate like this and my jaw is set
And my stomach is like a lump of clay that's just been left
Because the potter's lost it when it comes to creativity
- I know exactly why so many people hate themselves

When I feel so full of hurt like this and my jaw is set
Because we've just talked past each other yet again
In the same bloody insane way that we always do
- I know exactly why so many people hurt themselves

When I feel so full of pain like this and my jaw is set
And I'm lying here trying to cry but I can't because I've been taught not to
And I feel my body tingle as my emotion rises and then conditioning blows it out
- I know exactly why so many people kill themselves

When I feel so full of love like this and my jaw is set
And dialogue's rushing through my head but makes no sense
Which is not so surprising because there's no sense to it anyway
- I know exactly why so few people love themselves


© 2004 Philip Patston
Header © 2004 Mark McBeth, IDEA | MONGER

 

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After years of tortured youth and a bad social work and wheelchair habit, Philip found himself on stage with people laughing at him and discovered he was ... funny! He now divides his time between a successful career in comedy, writing, and consulting about diversity. In 1999 he was the recipient of the Billy T. James Comedy Award and was named Queer of the Year by the gay television series "Queer Nation." Learn more about Philip's personal appearances and speaking engagements by visiting Diversity Works.

 

 

BENT: A Journal of CripGay Voices/November 2004